Why am I so afraid to ‘be alone’? Why does my self-perception of existence constantly trap me into believing I have been imprisoned by what the world has physically and mentally done to me? The truth is I don’t understand what ‘being alone’ is. I have misconstrued ‘being alone’ with loneliness: trying to exist in a world of confusion, separation, and isolation, an imaginary place disconnected from Love. Loneliness is the hell on earth that I have created in my mind—the torture chamber of constant suffering where my ‘ego self’ is barricaded behind the walls of everything that has happened in my past, the place where Love can no longer reach me. Hell happens everywhere where Love does not come from within, where fulfillment can only be found by the constant craving for possession, achievement, or control of others and life outside of me.
Instead, ‘being alone’ means waking up and realizing that no one else can save me. Only by understanding the source of my suffering can I end mental suffering. Other than becoming aware that my self-ego lives trapped in time, regretting the past by constantly craving a different future based only on what I have already experienced, I am addicted to repeating the past in my mind. ‘Being alone’ means letting go of the belief that I am unique, that my ego is real, and remembering I already share the same awareness that I am spiritually connected with everyone else; a water droplet in the ocean and the same ocean is within me. It means remembering my connection with the universe and that my spirit is eternal. Despite and without the ‘self,’ my spiritual awareness is enough to ‘be alone’—to be only Love.
So, how can I wake up from this hell of repeating the past, living in fear, the illusion of being separated from Love? Meditation is the solution, and meditation is my natural state of mind that can happen in any present moment, simply by observing my thinking, not analyzing to keep score of who or what to blame, myself, someone, or something else, but through nonjudgmental understanding that can dissolve my past lack of awareness—for the illusion of mental suffering to disappear—Now.
‘Being alone’ means constantly remembering that the energy flowing through my existence is Love! My purpose in this life is to remain free from mental suffering by staying aware of ‘being—nothing more than Love—alone’ in the present moment, unburdened by attachments that create the illusion of the ‘self’ imprisoned by time, and remove all imaginary barriers that block Love from flowing through me, undistorted by the past, into the world—Now! Fear is dissolved in the freedom of being enough to ‘be alone,’ where there is no comparison, and only Love exists.
VAB 08-12-24
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